There are lots of things about infertility that are hard. Invasive testing, surgeries, needles, mood swings, being on a constantly moving emotional roller coaster, the list goes on. Someone asked me the other day what the hardest part is. I answered without hesitation: WAITING.
Every step along the way of an IVF cycle involves waiting, which can literally add up to months, even years. You wait for your initial appointment. You wait for your period to start. You wait for test results, then wait to schedule yet another test. You wait for your estrogen to go up, or your lining to thicken, or your estrogen to go down. You wait, yet again, for the nurse to call you back (this is what I'm waiting for today.) And the biggest wait of all, where after all the testing and procedures you wait on pins and needles to find out if it all worked or if you get to start the waiting process all over again.
This cycle has had even more waiting than normal because for the first time EVER since hitting puberty, my period was late. Ten days late. They put me on provera to get things going, which worked much more quickly than it was supposed to, which means it's anyone's guess how long it will last and if I can go through the testing I've scheduled (period has to end before the tests.) Speaking of which, here are the dates for those tests. Very tentative at this point because of my screwed-up cycle.
3/31 - HSG (SO nervous about this one, and I really wish Eric could come with me. Still trying to work that out.)
4/5 - mock embryo transfer
4/6 - SHG
4/7 - hysteroscopy and endometrial biopsy
If all goes well we're looking at a transfer date somewhere from mid-May to early June.
If I can wait that long.
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I do agree, its hard to wait. IVF very much is a huge waiting game and its no fun at all. I hope the rest of the stuff goes by without a hitch and on schedule!
ReplyDeleteLet me know if you need a place for Sawyer to hang out during an appointment!
ReplyDeleteI've never been a good waiter either. I haven't been through half of what you have but I've been through enough to know that it's miserable. Why so nervous about the HSG? You've had one before, right? Was it painful? I know a lot of people have told me that theirs was painful but mine was really only uncomfortable. I hope it goes like that for you too. Best wishes for all this stuff to work out and end up with another little cutie. :) Side note... how is the Provera? Any bad side effects? I took it for 3 months due to extreme cramping and tons of bleeding after my cycle returned (after having Lucas). It evened me out quite a bit but I don't have to take it anymore. I was always scared of the side effects but never actually had any.
ReplyDeleteMarie, Thanks so much for the offer, I might take you up on that!
ReplyDeleteBrandi, The HSG was by far the worst test for me last time. I just about hit the ceiling when the dye went in and my whole body was shaking afterwards. Thankfully yesterday's experience was much better!